Yep, I have lost my creative mojo. I have hardly opened my sketch book since the quake and when I have, I have come up with a big fat pile of nothing. I have tried doing some sewing, managed one drawstring bag and cocked up a little coin purse *sigh*. Instead of my mind wandering and discovering rainbows of colour, new shapes and designs, I find myself thinking about the Silent Samurai, many of these men have lost everything themselves, their homes and families or they have yet to hear if their family members are safe and have no idea if they will have a home to return to. They have had little rest since the quake and yet they carry on, risking their lives for others.
I am finding it really hard to get in a creative mood with everything that has happened and is still happening but tomorrow marks three weeks since the quake, it is time to get a grip on things and start moving forward, I'm just not sure which direction I am headed.
It's understandable that all that has happened will have shaken you and your creative focus. You sound so despondent, yet in 3 weeks you have done so much good through your blog and the fundraising efforts you have made. Your mojo will return and as ever it will come up with something surprising, fun, useful or thought provoking.
ReplyDeleteAlso hope Mom's op goes well tomorrow xx
I think that mine got up and left hand in hand with yours....
ReplyDeleteToday I started to reel it in, for the same reasons as you. But I think we are going to have to pretend for a bit until it really truly does come back. Sigh.
I think your creative voice will come back through as you gradually move forward. I've never been through what the people living in Japan are now going through, but I've had my share of personal disasters. It always takes me a while to process things enough, to get to a point where I can work on anything without sorrow silencing me to certain extent. Not that this is your case, but maybe it'll just take a while for your mind to feel free enough to wonder back to creative places like before.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. I think you're doing wonderful just with what you've done so far!
Thanks, I know it will come back, just feeling in a funk, can't get motivated to do anything and this stupid hay fever isn't helping!
ReplyDeleteHay fever is so miserable!
ReplyDeleteI agree with everyone else, that you have been productive and done a lot this past 3 weeks. It is understandable that you are presently in a funk and perhaps might even feel some "survivors guilt." It will come back, who knows if it will be all at once, or little by little; but if you worry about it, then it will probably play a trick on you and hide out even longer. I like that comment about pretending, then you can be the one playing a trick on it!
I completely understand this. You have been doing such important work, and we haven't forgotten you or Japan's larger need. Here's to the return of your creativity and your sense of self.
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