Thursday, 18 August 2011

Worry...

The radiation situtation is a very real one and one that I find really stressful, far more stressful than the threat of another big earthquake. Trying to find accurate information is like looking for a needle in a haystack, I don't believe that the government or TEPCO can be trusted after all the different stories that have emerged in the last few months and watching video's like the one I posted last week makes me sick to the stomach. This week I leaned that a high school teacher in Fukushima quit his job because he was told not to talk about the radiation issue with the children, although they were running around the school yard in T-shirts and without masks, read the story here.

I used to quite enjoy going to the supermarket for the weekly shop, now I hate it. As much as I feel sorry for the farmers in the affected areas, I don't want to be eating contaminated food and more to the point I don't want my son eating it. Food labelling isn't that strict here and the supermarkets have been caught up in mislabelling scandals in the past, so I don't have that much confidence in them either. I used to buy fruit and veg from the local farmers but now I choose things from the other end of the country or better still overseas.

A couple of days ago my husband had checked the radiation levels in the water and they were higher than normal so we went back to using bottled water rather than filtered tap water. Hubby checks the radiation levels every day, after reading/watching some of the latest news stories and having to go back to using bottled water kind of tipped me over the edge yesterday. I don't know how safe it is to stay but we don't really have an option to leave, we would be homeless and jobless. Selling the house would be difficult and we would most definately loose money on it and the job situation is pretty grim everywhere at the moment.

The worry of another earthquake I can handle, it might happen again, it might not but either way we will handle it when the time comes but having the constant worry of radiation hanging over us far worse. when the quake and tsunami first happened I cried for the victims, now I cry for myself and my family, I don't know what to do and I don't think burying my head in the sand and ignoring what is going on is a good idea either. I worry that in 20 years time we are going to regret staying, I fill up when my gorgeous little boy tells me he wants to be an architect when he grows up because the 'what if's' sneak their way into my head. This situation has changed me, I have lost my 'happy go lucky' attitude, I find it hard to concentrate on the job in hand, my creative umph is in a definate slump. The forums are full of talk about reports in information but not many are talking about what is going on in their heads, or maybe it is just me! So, if you are in the same boat, how are you handling it, are you worrying about everything like myself or just carrying on with business as usual?

Sorry for such a grim post but I need to get this off my chest.
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